Why it doesn't matter

Sometimes I find myself ruled by fear. The fear becomes so crippling that I'm almost unable to move forward. It is the fear of failure.

I'm not quite sure when this fear set in and why I let it hold me back from the things I really want to be able to do. My only conclusion is that I don't want anyone to think I am "less than" what I have trained them to think I am. Therefore, whatever I do is held up to the biggest standard I have created for myself and if there is the slightest chance that I might fail... well... I'd rather let that opportunity fade into obscurity.

It is VERY crippling. There are places online where you can find resources to overcome it.

Every now and then I come across quotes like the one in the picture above and I am reminded that I am not my failure or my struggles. I am the struggler.

This is why powerful people like Oprah don't sweat it when News organizations emblazon titles like OWN No! Oprah Winfrey's Struggling Network Shuffles Schedule or Can The Judds save Oprah because it doesn't matter. All she can do is try. The success or failure of OWN is not a reflection of herself does not make her more or less of who she is. Disclaimer: I'm a #1 Oprah fan.

All I can do is try, kuja gani wanaweza (come what may). It doesn't matter what the end result is. If I did my best, then it was all I could do.